October 28, 1998
I HAVE BECOME INVOLVED IN A CONFLICT WITH MY NEIGHBOR. HE DOES NOT LIKE ME OR MY THREE DOGS AND FREQUENTLY CALLS THE POLICE AND COMPLAINS THAT MY DOGS ARE BARKING. MY DOGS DO NOT BARK EXCESSIVELY AND I AM PERPLEXED THAT SO MUCH HATE IS BEING DIRECTED OUR WAY. HE HAS ALSO THREATENED TO KILL THEM. HE IS NOW THREATENING TO SUE ME AND HAS HIRED AN ATTORNEY. I DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT I DID TO DRAW THIS INTO MY LIFE AND WHAT I AM SUPPOSED TO LEARN FROM IT.
Whatever is drawn into your experience is being created by some level of consciousness within the whole of you. What aspect of your nature is afraid of being attacked, feels vulnerable? What aspect of your nature has drawn this kind of projection that is at some level familiar? Can you identify it and allow it to open to you what it truly needs, this aspect of consciousness? It is as if there is a split off from you that is being portrayed by this oneís activity. Open to what it needs, and you will find that there is a sense of love or re-establishment of the flow between aspects of your own awareness as well as aspects in the outer world.
Allow yourself to know that love is more powerful than fear. True love, pure love knows exactly what to do in this situation and in any situation from your past to bring it to wholeness and to healing. There is in this time what you call it a lesson, we would name it a call for integration of all of the aspects of your past separating or fragmenting self that now wish to come back to a whole. Allow yourself to look back and embrace. Take the energy out of the focus upon him and just dwell in where is the fear, where has it come from. Then bring love to that fearful aspect. Where else and when else have you felt this way and what does it remind you of? Bring love to this aspect. Who does it remind you of in another setting? Bring love to that experience and let yourself know that you are not powerless in this place.
SIXTEEN YEARS AGO THERE WAS A PROFOUND OPENING IN MY LIFE. I CHOSE TO TRUST SOMETHING CONNECTED WITH MY WRITING AND IT TOOK ME TO AN INDESCRIBABLE NEW WORLD OF THINKING, LOVING, CREATING AND EXPERIENCING. AFTER THIS I WAS HURT BY MY FAMILY AND I FELL INTO A VERY DARK PLACE WITH A LOT OF FEAR. I HAVE HEALED SOME OF THE WOUND BUT WOULD LIKE TO UNDERSTAND IT BETTER AND HEAL IT MORE FULLY, ESPECIALLY THE WOUND FROM MY MOTHER IN PARTICULAR. I REMAIN STUCK. WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?
When you open a great channel of love and light into your consciousness it will also open and go to the place within consciousness that is incomplete or holding wounds from the past. Then it will recreate that experience, not to hurt you all over again, but to open the love that you just opened to the wounded place that was already there before this experience with your family. Take the focus off of your family. Bring it to your own soul wound, the wound that was within your consciousness before it manifested in this way. Bring the love you remember, the opening, the light, and the joy to the wound and let that become a sort of womb of healing. As you do so let it touch to the depths of the wound, far beyond this life. It is not about your family. If you can, let that go, and let it go deeper so the whole of this wound can be touched and not try so much to heal this experience that is only a surface experience compared to what it was attempting to open for you for this time.
As you do so, you will find that there is freedom. Freedom from the binding, the trauma, the paralysis. Freedom to open again to the joy, and to manifest joy in your life with people, with a partner, with your own expression of creativity and joy. So, let go of the focus on your family, your mother. Open to the soul wound and let it receive directly. Let it take you to where you need to go, and let the love pour through to heal at all levels.
I DREAMED THAT AN ALIEN SHIP HAD FLOWN OVER MY TOWN AND WAS SHOOTING THESE GREAT BIG BALLS OF LIGHT, AND THERE WERE MESSAGES WRITTEN ON THEM FOR ALL TO SEE. I THINK THE LAST MESSAGE SAID SOMETHING LIKE "INSANITY". WERE ALIENS COMMUNICATING WITH ME, AND IF SO WHAT ARE THEY TRYING TO SAY?
Aliens were not communicating with you. Their image was utilized by your consciousness to illustrate a certain destructive energy that is perhaps needing a little balance. There is in your life a destructuring taking place on a conscious level. Certain beliefs, certain patterns and ways of being, habits, ways of acting are being gently but quite deliberately dismantled. Your mind is having difficulty with this and would rather look a different direction or perhaps even find excuses or ways to not focus on this and to stay in a certain amount of control. Yet the message the mind received in this dream was that if it allows the balls of light to come all the way in it will feel insane. It may for a time, but insanity is only a word that means the loss of a reference of reality that others consider real. Perhaps that means that you will be free to open to a reference of reality that is more real and more true on a soul level knowing than what most of the world presently calls real. What they would call insane you would begin to know as truth.
The dream had a message, a powerful message. If your soul decides to use those who would be called extra-terrestrials to deliver the message, then it is only that your soul is interpreting it as coming outside of you rather than yet opening to the realization that you are creating this experience within the whole of the transformation of consciousness that is calling you to participate. It is not from outside of you, but deeply within you.
I HAVE BEEN WORKING WITH AN ENERGY HEALER AND FEEL LIKE I KEEP HITTING A WALL THAT STOPS ME FROM REALLY GETTING TO MY CORE ISSUES. THE ENERGY WORK IS POWERFUL AND I WANT TO BE ABLE TO OPEN UP TO IT, BUT FOR SOME REASON THE FEAR OF FINDING OUT WHAT'S ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE WALL STOPS ME. CAN YOU OFFER ANY SUGGESTIONS?
Energy work is not the same as unconditional love. If this one cannot provide and hold a space for you to open to this place, then perhaps you need to seek one who can. Opening to these places that require you to break through the barriers that have been structures of consciousness, of protection, based on fear, requires a great amount of safety for your consciousness. It requires that there is a sense that there is an ability of the one you are asking to assist you to hold the space necessary so that you can open these doors and these places, and know that there is enough wholeness and love present to support you to do so, so that you can release and reconfigure within that space with complete trust. You do not trust this person, find someone else.
IN ONE OF YOUR PREVIOUS RESPONSES YOU REFERRED TO BECOMING MORE AND MORE TRANSPARENT TO WHAT WISHED TO BE IN AND THROUGH YOU. WHAT DID YOU MEAN BY TRANSPARENT?
What is meant by becoming more transparent is that your soul, your beautiful souls, have been hiding or hidden behind a mask of personality that has been designed by perceptions, beliefs, the patterns and conditioning that say that who you truly are cannot be present, cannot express, cannot live in this dimension of the physical, material world. So you were conditioned by fear, through fear, through guilt, by all of these different ways to design a mask or a persona that you utilize to communicate, to express, to live, to create, etc. It is fairly thick, and not very transparent to the soul and the soulís beauty, presence, love, and its desire to be the creator of your experience. Transparency means that you are willing to release the conditioning, the fear, the patterning, the persona that is false and illusory, and that you are willing to allow your soul to come to take the space of your whole being, your whole body, your whole life, and to be known through every experience, every creation that is your sense of yourself in life.
YOU SPOKE OF BEING ABLE TO SEE THOSE WHO HAVE PASSED ON "HALFWAY ON THE BRIDGE". HOW?
When ones pass on, there is a bridge of light that they pass over. They are leaving one side of the bridge and moving to another where there are those who would assist them. People on this side can walk halfway across the bridge with them, and they are met by those who would take them the rest of the way. If you have loved ones who have passed over already, then to invite them or receive them, or focus your mind to them and invite them to at least the half way point on the bridge of light where they will be met. Invite them to take their focus off of life here on earth if they seem to be still present.
WHAT DOES THE TERM "WALK-IN" MEAN?
It is a definition that is used to describe the experience of one soul who has been within a certain body leaving that body and allowing another soul to enter and use the body for life, to experience life, to grow, to do things in the body without going through the birth process. This particular phenomenon has been allowed on certain occasions. However, it is not nearly as wide-spread as ones would like to believe. There are very strict principles governing this practice. It is not utilized by many souls because of the amount of responsibility that is taken on when a new soul enters the body of another soul. There are also karmic implications that are needing to be assumed and worked out. Those who do take on such a responsibility have a great deal to pay attention to for quite awhile.
Many misinterpret the experience of the greater part of their own soul entering, or different aspects of their own soul reconnecting to their own body, as a walk-in experience. That is not truly a walk-in experience, but a reintegration of facets of the soul that have been split off, or split apart. There can be even a dynamic change of personality when certain facets of the whole of consciousness return or are restored, but that is not a walk-in, and it does not have the same principles governing it nor does it have the same responsibilities.
I FEEL LOST AS TO WHAT I AM TO BE DOING. WHAT I AM DOING NOW JUST DOESN'T SEEM AS THOUGH I'M THERE.
So where are you? If you are not in your experience then where have you put your focus and attention? Find that. Go to that place and sit there as if you are in a sitting meditation, dwelling in your own experience and your own place of awareness and ask, seek, know that the clarity is there. As you sit with yourself, as you sit and open to the awareness of clarity for your own consciousness to integrate into life more fully, what is it that has kept you from fully integrating into life. Whose voice is there that you have retracted against and made an authority that keeps you from fully integrating your true nature? And what gives you the most joy as you contemplate it from your past experience or even contemplating aspects of it in your present? Ask these questions in your meditation while you sit with yourself and find out who is there and where that one is and you will then know your direction.
HOW DID JESUS CHRIST HEAL, AND IS SUCH A WAY OF HEALING APPROPRIATE NOWADAYS OR IS THERE ACTUALLY A "NEED" IN THE INDIVIDUAL FOR A PARTICULAR FORM OF DISEASE?
People manifest disease and imbalance based on what they hold true in their awareness and consciousness, even at unconscious levels. So the body, the life creates the experience of what is held to be true. Healing is the awareness of another truth beyond that is perceived to be the reality. Jesus just would look at the soul and know the wholeness of who they were in such a way that they began to feel the wholeness of who they were. It was such a powerful realization that they would translate it all the way through to the physical manifestation of the awareness, and it was called healing. What does healing mean? It means wholeness. What is wholeness? Wholeness is love. So, Jesus had the capacity through love to see the whole of that oneís soul and presence, to confirm and reaffirm that the truth was there and all else was illusion, and it became so, illusion.
Yes, there is a manifestation of what is named true and perceived as real. It manifests in disorder, imbalance, disease, pain, struggle, lack, and all sorts of things. But is it the truth? Never. Never has been and never will be, but if it is believed to be then it has power to create.
Is such a way of healing appropriate now days? Yes, it is appropriate.
IS MY DIVINE SELF HOLOGRAPHIC IN NATURE, IN OTHER WORDS IS THE WHOLE WITHIN ME AND EVERYTHING ELSE?
I JUST FOUND OUT THAT MY YOUNGER BROTHER IS HAVING SOME EMOTIONAL PROBLEMS AND HE'S GETTING INVOLVED IN A LIFESTYLE THAT COULD CAUSE HIM A LOT OF HARM. MY DAD CAN'T HELP HIM WITH HIS INNER FEELINGS AND WANTS HIM TO FIGURE THINGS OUT. HE IS THREATENING TO SEND HIM TO MILITARY SCHOOL. THIS IS ALARMING TO ME. I UNDERSTAND MY BROTHER'S PAIN AND MUCH OF WHAT HE IS GOING THROUGH. I FEEL I HAVE SOMETHING TO OFFER MY FAMILY WITH THIS ISSUE. IT SEEMS TO ME LIKE SOME OLD STUFF THAT WASN'T EVER DEALT WITH WHEN I WAS YOUNG AND IS COMING UP WITH MY BROTHER. PLEASE ADVISE ON HOW I CAN HELP.
Your are wise in your perception and your desire to be of assistance. What we would say to you is that your father is acting out of a sense of powerlessness or not knowing what to do in the emotional arena and not feeling comfortable or at ease with his own emotions. Therefore he is unable to be of assistance, so he contracts into what he does know which is a form of control. That is what he then looks to as the most controlling institution that can then, in a sense, whip this one into shape.
You know that love is the answer. You know that love heals, and that it is a deeper issue and level of healing that is called forth in your entire family, in particular with yourself and with your brother. We would say three things. One is to begin to see that love is more powerful than the fear that is within your family system, and to begin to see within the heart of your own soul and within the heart of your family. Begin to focus pure, unconditional love, rose-colored light, into the heart of your family and into the heart of your own soul and the heart of your brother, father, and mother. Allow the beautiful, unconditional love to penetrate the field and to begin to move this into place to assist you so that you are not doing so alone. And you are not doing this alone.
Second, make a discernment whether you can do this alone in the physical and whether it would be helpful to bring your family to a third party that you would trust to work within the field of love to assist this to open further. When you are part of the system, itself, it is difficult sometimes to open within it to the degree that it would need to open without someone holding the space for it that is not connected within the system. Discern this for yourself whether it feels as if that would be helpful.
Third, communicate what you feel with your brother directly, alone, without your parents presence. Communicate what your experience has been, what your perceptions are, and begin to make a link with him in a physical, emotional way so that he begins to see and know that there is someone who understands and is willing to be wit