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In the April channeling with Archangel Michael we heard that it would become increasingly more painful to choose away from what is real and has life, including what television programs we watch. I began to get the message after I found American Idol and Dancing with the Stars to be programs I simply could not watch, even after repeated attempts. I thought I might appreciate the entertainment, but the emotionally manipulative, lifeless and cringe-worthy moments upset my sensibilities so much I had to bolt from the room to relax my suddenly hyper-responsive nervous system. I used to ignore such discomfort, but my feelings and emotions are informing me in ways I can no longer avoid noticing.
"Painful" in this context is not so much physical torment as a squirming discomfort so intense that introspection, action and choice take priority over continuing as before. If you have ever felt betrayed in a relationship then you have known a similar internal upset. In these times the focus of any betrayal is more about choices made against self. We have worked to unbind ourselves from duality and bring ourselves into greater personal alignment, and any movement out of that alignment now seems to have an amplification of annoyance not previously present. This feedback from the New Field informs us of consequence of a choice and asks us to listen and choose again.
I created an experience for myself last week that helped me better understand this internal guidance system. Michele and I spent several weeks house-hunting with each day teaching us more about what we want in our next home. A few days ago we made an offer on a property that seemed to make sense for all the right reasons. That evening I went to bed feeling nervous, tense and troubled. I went through every rationalization and testing process trying to convince myself that I had made the right decision. I finally fell asleep and had endless nightmares.
By morning I was so stirred up that I wanted to crawl right out of my skin to escape the intensity. I told Michele I was troubled by the choice, which opened a conversation about where each of us was at with the decision. By the end of the day we withdrew our offer. Previously in life I have ignored subtle feelings tugging at me only to suffer the consequences and eventually right my action somewhere down the line. I have learned a couple things from this experience. First, when moving out of personal alignment subtlety is disappearing in favor of loud and in-your-face. Second, there is no grey area in the New Field. It is either yes or no. Also, we don't have to give up our personal fulfillment so somebody else can have theirs. In fact, we can't. In the new reality everybody gets what they need. For Michele and me this includes a future with a house that is perfect for both of us.
It's May and we're still a bit between worlds, perhaps with some tenacious sense of aimlessness for many of us. Keep in mind that we're still doing some preparation for greater movement in the near future, and every day we practice being more present with ourselves while exploring the workings of the new system. We also continue releasing bindings of the old, and discomfort on any level is just a reminder of where to pay attention. And BTW, feel free to drop sacrifice and compromise from your vocabulary. There are no such concepts in the new world.
Feelin' groovy,
Chris
Note: Cinco De Mayo celebrations will take place in our area on May 8th until 6pm. Some of the normal routes to our building will have limited access. If you are coming to the channeling via I-94 we suggest Kellogg Blvd. to Smith Avenue to the high bridge. Then left on George at the top of the bridge to Humboldt. Wabasha and Cesar Chavez St. may not be open when coming in from Hwy. 52.
PLANETARY SESSION THIS WEDNESDAY, May 5th, 7-9pm
This event is a group process with a planetary focus. Attendance is by donation. You can join us in person or by phone. If you'd like to be included on the phone call send email to chris@lightsmith.com.
EARTH MOTHER THIS SATURDAY, May 8th, 7-9pm
We don't know what she has planned, but it's always profound. In person or by phone. http://lightsmith.com/center/channelingsinfo.htm
TUESDAY TUNEUP, May 18th, 7-9pm
These group sessions continue the focus of the previous channeling while also giving attention to personal issues. Always potent and effective.
April Downloads Available:
Archangel Michael Channeling of April 10th
Listen to the first 10 minutes
Tuesday Tuneup of April 27th