Small Group Sessions January 1998

HOW DO I CONNECT WITH ‘WHO I AM’? DAILY I ASK GOD AND MY ANGELS TO POINT ME TO THE PATH I KNOW I HAVE TO GET ON TO LIVE MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST. WHAT AM I MISSING? WHERE SHOULD I BE FOCUSING MY ATTENTION?

It is helpful to pray to your guides and angels, but it is equally as helpful to pay attention your own inner feelings and impulses. Your body is part of a symbiotic whole of nature and it is this planet that you are a part of, not something out in space. You are part of something that is re-creating itself in a way that has not yet been seen in a physical material way, so you can not know where you are going, the outcome. By paying close attention to your impulses, your instincts, the senses within you, and your feelings, you can maneuver every moment in accordance with where you are to be in any given time-space continuum for an optimal outcome of your part, your expression, your way of weaving through and within the whole just by listening and following those places, those instincts.

Ones have called it intuition. That is a part of it, but when you wake up in the morning do not only pray outside of you, but feel what you feel like that day. If it is a day where you wake up and there is a great amount of energy, then be aware that there is an energy that wishes to come through you into form, into creation, into experience. Listen to what it is. Perhaps your plans for that day are not where the energy wants to go. Change your plans. Go where the energy goes. Trust it and go where your instincts tell you to go and do what your instincts tell you to do. The more you do so the more you will find that your path is what you are upon in the sense that there is nothing else that exists outside of your way of being in the world.

I HAVE BEEN FEELING DISCONNECTED FROM MY CLOSEST LOVED ONES RECENTLY, ESPECIALLY THIS PAST SIX MONTHS. I AM CONCERNED, BUT YET FEEL MY LOVE EXPANDING IN MY SPIRIT TO MORE WORLDLY CONCERNS. HOW DO I COPE, YET EXPAND MY OWN LIGHT AND LOVE ONWARD?

There are different levels of the heart chakra. The personal level which you first described, and the more universal heart, universal love which you are growing into. It does not preclude the personal but encompasses it so that the personal love is within that universal love. It is much more unconditional, more embracing and allowing, requires less perfection to standards or expectations. It allows ones to choose apart or even different paths even if it seemingly would take them far from what you believe or wish for them.

Yet the universal encompasses, and that is what you are growing into. Relax into it even further, for it will show you and it will teach you in many ways how to move your energy, your impulse, your awareness within it and for it, so that the universal Source of love can focus through you and be effecting of what would be necessary changes in different kinds of ways. Love is the great effector of healing, of change, of creation of what is coming. So you are growing the capacity to be part of the next great creation that Love is forming.

AFTER MORE THAN A DECADE OF ‘SOUL-SEARCHING’ I AM SORRY TO SAY I HAVE FOUND MANY UNPLEASANT THINGS ABOUT MYSELF. I HAVE NO GOALS, NO DREAMS AND NO EXPECTATIONS. I LIVE FROM DAY TO DAY WITHOUT KNOWING WHY. IT IS HARDER AND HARDER FOR ME TO BELIEVE MY EXISTENCE AND PRESENCE HERE SERVES ANY PURPOSE AT ALL. WHY AM I STILL PLAYING THIS GAME CALLED LIFE? I HAVE BEEN ASKING MYSELF WHETHER THERE IS A PATH TO OBLIVION, NO LIGHT, NO DARKNESS, JUST OBLIVION.

The mind can reduce everything and box it in and try to define and understand it, and basically take the life out of it. The mind has that ability, and it certainly has been exercised around the world in the old matrix of duality. However, life exists apart from what you think about it. Living day to day is not a bad thing, but you are not living unless you experience it as life. So, quit thinking. Stop the reduction of everything to a thought or an understanding or even an attempt to do so. Go outside and lay on your belly on the earth and start to feel with your fingers as if you were about 6 months old. Feel the earth with your fingers, and your face, and your body. Begin to experience through your senses that experience of touch, of taste, of smell. Reintroduce yourself.

Go back to when you were about 6 months old and you began to move your belly across the earth and began to excite the senses and open the awareness of life, directly, without any thoughts to cloud or clutter or separate you from that experience. Life is exquisite, and it isn’t anything that you can think about. It is exquisitely experienced. You are not trying to find your soul. Your soul is the experience of the Creator of it, the great Source, so your nature is designed as a sensory experiencer to experience everything. The mind does not want to experience it all, so it reduces it and keeps the experience apart from you, and you begin to go lifeless. We invite you to seek life. Seek life and let it seek you. Go meet it and let it meet you. Relate to it and let it embrace you.

WHAT DOES IT TAKE TO LEVITATE, CHANGE WATER INTO WINE, BECOME INVISIBLE, AND CREATE THINGS OUT OF THIN AIR? WHAT ENERGY CENTERS ARE INVOLVED, WHERE ARE THEY, AND WHAT ARE THE PREREQUISITES OF DOING THESE THINGS?

These things are not done by the personal centers of the body, or what most people refer to as the 7 chakras. They are done by accessing the universal chakra system that is accessed when the personal chakra system is quite solid, healthy, and aligned so that they can anchor the higher frequencies and amplitudes necessary on the universal chakras that are then activated and allow the transmutation of matter, which is basically what you are asking about, where matter is affected on the atomic level. So, to do that requires several capacities. It isn’t just spiritual capacities, it is also disciplines of consciousness and focus of attention and mind as well as the capacity of the channel to amplify energy that is focused to do “the bidding” of the one who is requesting the transmutation or shift of appearance of matter.

Matter is a certain density formulation of atomic structures and velocity of speed of certain atoms in their rotation and relationship with one another. When one can amplify to the universal chakra system, particularly with alignment and the discipline necessary to hold focus with the mind, much can be accomplished. Many students want to accomplish such things, but you cannot do so with the personal chakra system alone. It is also impossible to do until there is a certain discipline of mind. Discipline of mind means that you are a master of your thoughts and you are a master of that which you entertain in your consciousness as well as in your environment. So there is a certain acknowledgment of what you will allow to be in your attention, in your space, in your focus, because when you entertain it, when you allow it, it is like hosting someone in your home.

If it is negative, then you are affected. If you say ‘I will not host this in my consciousness, my thoughts, and my body’, then you begin to clarify and purify the body, the personal chakra system, and also hone the discipline of the mastery of the mind. When that becomes sufficiently strong and the amplitude is able to be anchored of the universal chakras, the mastery levels, then you will learn such things as you have asked.

WHY DOES THE HEART CHAKRA ALLOW US TO CATCH THE ENERGIES OF OTHERS? DOES THIS HAPPEN TO OTHER PEOPLE, CATCHING OTHERS’ ENERGIES AUTOMATICALLY AND THEY JUST DON’T FEEL THEM BECAUSE THEIR HEART ISN’T AS OPEN?

When the heart is open but the self is not discerning, it is a factor of several things. The heart will always open to make connection, that is its nature, to connect. It wants to see whether or not those who are in your atmosphere are connectable with you, whether there is a resonance with you, whether there is a sense of opening back to you. So the heart is by nature a relational, connecting organ. However, it is in relationship also with other chakras and other levels of consciousness within the self, and it needs to be balanced by discernment, which is the throat chakra, and by a sense of boundaries or a sense of what you will allow in your space, in your auric field, in the integrity of you. So that needs to be in a partnership, and when one is open and, perhaps, leading, and discernment or the part that says ‘I will not allow’ is not as strong, then what is taken in is indiscriminate, and a lot of work and energy is needed to sort it all out.

Our suggestion is to practice discernment and to focus on strengthening the sense of what will be allowed and what will not be allowed in your auric field by being very diligent with your thoughts. You have already begun to practice this. It is necessary to continue. This is not to be arduous, but discipline requires attention. Attention means that you are conscious and are not falling asleep.

LATELY I HAVE BEEN WORKING ON GETTING MY ACT TOGETHER ON A NUMBER OF LEVELS. SOMETIMES IT SEEMS LIKE TOO MUCH AT ONCE AND SOMETIMES IS SEEMS LIKE THERE REALLY ISN’T MUCH TIME LEFT TO DO SO. IS THERE A REASON I’M FEELING THIS NEED TO COMPLETE MANY THINGS?

You are picking up on what is a larger collective shift that is approaching in this next cycle. There is a need to complete as much as possible from the journeys in the density of duality and separation. The belief structures, the adaptations, the distortions, the illusions, all of those things that are not the truth of who you are, the nature of your being and the nature of consciousness, and the nature of this planetary organism and the nature of the universe. There have been many distortions, many lies, and many adaptations over time and lifetimes, and this lifetime is designed by your soul’s wisdom to clean up your act, so to speak. To clean up from the whole of the distortions and illusions of that passageway and come to a new recognition and realization of what is important, who you are, and to make that choice to be in Love every day. To be aligned with purity of love, to be aligned with the purity of life, and to be aligned with the purity of light.

In this collective shift of consciousness, those who are in alignment in this next year will experience a time where certain capacities and frequencies of your own essence will be more and more evident, more accessible, more present, and stronger. For those who are not ready or in alignment there will be a sense of feeling that they are pushed to make a choice. The choices may not be as easy next year in the sense that the temptations to slide back to something that is known, secure, or the temptation of the old will also get stronger and so the tests will be felt to be greater for those who are breaking away or breaking out of those forms and those structures that wove the sleep of death through consciousness in these ages past.

I’M FROM ISREAL, TEL-AVIV, AND I WANT TO ASK ABOUT WHAT IS THE CHANCE FOR TRUE PEACE HERE AND WHAT IS NEEDED TO BE LEARNED IN ORDER TO HAVE TRUE PEACE, POSSIBLY WHEN IT WILL COME, AND IN WHAT FORM.

The issues that are in this area are layered, as you know, and quite complex. Those of you who are of love and light and desire to have harmony need to be aware that linking with others around in support of this intention is helpful to you, and that you not do it only all by yourselves. The land itself has had so much fighting and duality, and the blood of victims and victimization runs deep in the consciousness of all different nationalities and those who would be opposed to one another. To stand in any one of those places in that matrix, in that energy field, is very difficult to maintain the alignment with the kind of love and blessing that is required to transmute the duality of victimization and domination that has run so very deep and is so layered and is so caught in the land that you live upon there.

So link with others around the world using your computer and your ability to write or speak with others. It is helpful for you to clear, if you can, the place that you live in and the land around the place that you live in as much as possible. Go deep into the earth asking the direct consciousness of the earth to assist you to clear the layers of conflict, battles, victimization, and death that is yet living in the land. When that is done, your meditations will be more effective and less affected by the collective that is around you. You can begin to realize that the resolution is not only in terms of people coming together. The first level of resolution is that which moves to shift the matrix of victimization, domination, and duality that has been played out in this region for the last 5,000 years. It is the birth place of domination on the planet. To come to peace soon is a hope, but it takes the whole of consciousness to assist you to do it.

I HAVE SPENT THE PAST SEVERAL MONTHS STUDYING, RE-LEARNING, EXPERIMENTING, WRITING A BOOK AND RECONNECTING. I FEEL I AM DRAWING TO A CLOSE OF THIS STAGE OF MY LEARNING AND I AM READY TO SERVE. WHAT WOULD YOU HAVE ME DO NOW?

Well, it is not truly up to us to tell you what to do. You are in and through your own personal alignment and choices working on behalf of a larger ray of intention, rather like an archetype in the earth plane. That expands and contracts in its expression, in its ability to take you to deeper depths of consciousness, learning, and awareness as well as clarity as well as how to then bring this into material form or forms that can be of symbiotic assistance with others. What we see for you in this next year are several things. One is linkages with people that you do not yet know that will come very quickly into place, rather like dominoes with one leading to another. In the first stages this will propell you into some rather exciting enterprises and undertakings, some of which will bear fruit and some of which will seemingly not bear fruit. Do not judge them based only on the forms or the “success” of the forms in the material world. Those that do not bear fruit in the next year or so are those that have a longer growing season and will need a little more nurturance, and perhaps different people will come to be part of it over time.

So our suggestion to you is to increase the frequencies of joy in body, the capacities of your body to hold and feel and know joy. That will precipitate for you many things, some of which we actually cannot tell you right now because you soul will not allow us to.

THE EMOTION OF FEAR IS SO OVERPOWERING AT TIMES. I SEE IT EVERYWHERE I GO. I KNOW THERE IS A SHIFT IN OUR LEVEL OF CONSCIOUSNESS, BUT I NOW FEEL A LEVEL OF FEAR THAT I’VE NOT KNOWN BEFORE. I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD BE DOING SOMETHING TO HELP KEEP THE LOVE MOVING OR HELPING PEOPLE SEE AND FEEL IT, BUT I DON’T KNOW HOW TO DO THIS. I KEEP TRUE TO ME AND WALK IN MY HEART AND I TEACH THIS TO MY 4 YEAR OLD SON. BUT THIS DOESN’T FEEL LIKE ENOUGH. HOW DO I GET PAST MY OWN FEAR OF PUTTING MYSELF “OUT THERE”?

When you are aligning with love it is important to realize that love not only surrounds you, but it is within you. It is beneath you and it is above you, and it is time for you to call in your love partners. They are those that will be in assistance and alliance with you. It is difficult to put something “out there” all by yourself. Your soul is holding you back, not entirely through fear, but partially there is timing involved. There has been a need for you to not only choose this, but also become aware that you are in alliance or partnership with a universal love and that universal love is also shared by others. Their desire to do the same as you also lives in their hearts. Find your brothers and sisters and let them find you. Put the call out. Anchor in love and also anchor in the earth. Bring your love through you, down through the root chakra, and establish a deep, rooted connection with the heart of love that is the center of this planet that you call Mother. Let her support you and your child as well, and find that that is also strengthening.

So two things. Root in the heart of the mother, for she will nurture you and assist you, and call in your love partners for what is to come for expression.