Update May 30, 2005
May 30, 2005
• Cleaning, Clearing, Releasing
Hi, and welcome to the end of May. Moving rapidly, we are. Busy, busy, busy. Michele and I have been engaged in a whirlwind of projects that fittingly involves the entire lower level of our home. We have almost completely rearranged how we use the space, expanding the office/production area, and dumping oldness of all kinds. The metaphor, of course, is clearing out more of the old structures from the subconscious in preparation for what is next. I have also installed another computer, and can tell that my other two are soon going to be receiving makeovers. How much nicer everything works when the space is clear and the systems are streamlined.
It's “focus on the root chakra” time for many, and whaddaya know but we have a new root chakra CD available to assist. Last month Michele gave a two and a half hour keynote presentation to a group of 120 healing touch practitioners. I must say, she was in top form and the talk was inspired. I was helping with the day in my A-V Club sort of way, and was pleased to find the group very receptive to new material from Michele and a visit from the Earth Mother (who closed with a message and a blessing).
Anyway, about that root chakra CD……….
Earlier in April, Michele gathered a small group so she could record a process for working with the root chakra. She wanted to have the CD finished in time for the conference, so I got put to work pulling the pieces together and finishing the editing on a fast track. As usual for Michele, it's a pretty comprehensive process in two broad parts. The first part focuses on releasing old traumas from the root as well as calling the soul into deeper union with the body. The second part includes information new to most, particularly as she works with connecting and drawing upon 9 filaments through which Life flows. She describes the field of living light that has been formed as the new template for creation, and how working with the filaments consciously is part of re-sourcing life and becoming a conscious creator of your own life experiences. More information and a photo of the cover is on our web site at…….
A few days ago we set aside a morning to connect with friends in Spirit for a check-in. Even though we have been very busy, I began to feel that energetic nudging that I am being prompted to step up the communications. Then, sure enough I start to hear from some of you wondering when we will have another update. Guess it is time, because here it is :)
This time it felt like a group of significant size had gathered to be with us, and we were joined by at least one of the “teachers”. I use the word teachers to describe an energy quality that comes across with a bit more directness and urgency in the message. When these channelings occur, I feel a little like I'm sitting in a classroom conversing with a professor of some stature. Love and compassion are always present, but so is a certain mastery of perception and consciousness from which I always learn. More than the information of words, the value for me is in how things are seen and expressed. Sometimes leaves me feeling like a middle-aged Paduan in counsel with Yoda. And yes, I'm using the Force…………..
Have a great June, and we'll be checking in again, soon.
The session begins with Spirit. Words in caps are mine.
Blessings, greetings. Hello.
HELLO. ALWAYS MY PLEASURE TO HAVE A CHANCE TO INTERACT WITH YOU THIS WAY. I WAS FEELING THAT IT WAS TIME TO AGAIN PASS ALONG SOME REFLECTIONS AND SUGGESTIONS FROM YOU ABOUT OUR COLLECTIVE PROCESS OF TRANSFORMATION. PERHAPS YOU WOULD BEGIN WITH SOME COMMENTS, AND THEN SEE WHAT QUESTIONS MAY COME.
Yes, we will begin.
Many people keep expecting that things should be easier, that they should just get it, and that there is a way things are supposed to be in their ideal vision. The message we would share this day is about focus, or discipline, as this concept is not always well understood. Duality is very seductive, and has been around for a very long time. It has been the main reality base and reference for most of you, and your habits, patterns, memories, experiences, and emotional content was formed during lifetimes of experience in that reality. You have been doing much work releasing those old structures from your bodies and consciousness, and now you are moving into a new living field, a new matrix, of unified light and life. What is newly available to you now needs structure, rather like a new operating system as you might say in your computer terms.
What we see as we stand with you is that sometimes you become lost in your process, and are impeded by your interpretations or idealism that will not fully allow you to release the old structures and move into what is now available to you. It's a bit like having a favorite old sweater or pair of pants. Even though they are well worn and have served their time, there may be difficulty in letting them go. In a sense, duality and its emotional flavors has become like a familiar, old companion. When one starts to release out of it, sometimes the fear of not knowing what is next, or how to engage a new operating system, prevents people from letting go. Even if the old emotions are difficult, even if they are fear-based, even if they contain many distortions about self (I am not good enough, I am always the one left out, I am not worthy to have good friends, etc.) That is the experience in duality, the well-worn and familiar emotional pathways.
What we are sharing is that the new operating system is available. It is accessible and is there for you to choose. There is no cost for this system [smile]. It is there for you. However, it IS a choice, and it is a matter of where you put your focus. And it may take a bit of discipline, a bit of repetitive focusing, choosing again and again and again. You have been working towards becoming more conscious. You have been working towards being aware that you have a choice. The awareness that you have a choice IS consciousness.
The emotional patterns may try to cling based on old or unmet needs for security, for a sense of mother, for a sense of belonging, for a sense of not being alone. Duality by its structure is designed with separation, conscious/unconscious, particularly. This is a split. What formed in duality created splits in consciousness. If you say I am not as good as, then you are splitting yourself from someone or something. If you say I am the one who is always rejected, or I am afraid of being rejected, then that is patterning rejection and separation. It is a split. Everything you say about self that does not feel as if you are one with, part of, or does not elicit joy and a feeling of communion and love is dualistic. And it is part of the old pattern, the old clothes.
The new fits you better than anything that you've ever known, because it vibrates with who you are. It opens your capacity to partner with living light, to manifest your nature. Now, perhaps you don't know your nature, fully. Perhaps that is not fully conscious. You are still growing that awareness. The first awareness is that you have a choice. If you exercise that choice, even when it is difficult, you will start to notice that the new operating system begins to inform you and begins to teach you its ways. If you do not choose it you will not learn it. You will not avail yourself of what is now present to you. You will remain in those patterns and you will keep rotating and circling through them as if there is nothing else beyond it. That is not the truth.
Most of you who are reading or feeling this know by now that you have a choice. You know that you long for the fulfillment in the living field, and you know that at some level you were born for this because you never completely fit in to the old. That longing, that sense of what you were born for, is now your propelling energy. Move toward it. Choose it daily, and in every moment that you are aware of having the choice. Much of the choice is just about paying attention. Open to what is real, true, and connecting you to life, rather than the old messages, the old story line, and the old emotions.
Deep down, there is much going on in the root chakras. There is also much going on in the second chakras, the unconscious plane of the old ‘storage units' in the body. Some of you may feel like cleaning house. I know that you are [Chris and Michele], and others of you may also feel like cleaning house, both physically and on other levels. It is necessary to go deeper and release old patterns connected with survival in the old structure. These were your way of functioning, your way of belonging, your way of attracting attention, your way of getting your needs met. All of those things served you within the splits and separation that duality creates. However, those structures are not needed, and they do not operate within the new. They hold a certain frequency bound in your body and consciousness that bogs down the new system. You might have a little of the new structure already built in, and yet you are trying to operate the new system while bringing along some of the old system. In your computer language, they do not compute well. You have small crashes. Blue screens. The crashes, then, may be opportunities for you to let go even more of the old.
So, you may be experiencing old emotional patterns that make you feel alone, or beliefs, structures, and patterns that make you feel as if you are not able to do and be fully who you are, and be fully loved, accepted, joyful, and creative within who you are. Or beliefs and patterns that make you feel as if you are going to always be alone. The grief in letting go of the past, the old sweater, the old people, prevents you from opening the doors into fully embodying who you are and who you are to be here. Our suggestion is to realize that you can exercise your choice and know that love is ever present, and that we are present with you. We, along with others in Spirit stand with you, as well as the great Earth Mother and her devas, your guides, teachers, and others. Some days all we do is try to make the choice stronger in your field so that you turn towards it and realize that you do have the choice. Some days that is all that is happening for us with you.
As you make the choice with consciousness, you have many tools to assist you in clearing the old pathways. Use the blue rays of truth and integrity, the violet ray of purification and transmutation, and the blue-violet, which deletes and releases old imprints and old structures that are no longer necessary. What is surfacing now in your emotions is meant to be released. It is not to be re-entertained and then put on as if it is all that exists. That is not the reason for feeling things these days. They are leaving your personal unconscious. If the collective continues to influence you, then step away for a time. Put around you the gold light, the Christos, the great barrier that assists you to sort what is truly real from the illusions and delusions that continue to be broadcast - and we mean that, broadcast - in and through the collective consciousness. Weave gold or platinum through your auric shield, your auric membrane, as this one [Michele] says. Let it help you step apart for a bit. You may want to be more interactive again in the collective, that's your choice, but not until the new operating system is established and you have the software, the consciousness and awareness, built within you. When that gets strong enough, you can stay in this new place while perhaps doing some things that interact with the old consciousness, the collective, and the other structures. But do not attempt to move into those places until you have sufficient strength in the new pathways. You need the new structure, the coherency and cohesiveness, and the emotional tones of your new operating system fueling you.
It has been a very intense two months in your time. The wave that went through is still going through. Those who continue to struggle with this know what we are speaking of. Those who have moved through it a little bit more may have some wisdom to offer to those who are still struggling. This is not the only wave this year, and we do not wish to impart any fear about that. It is a great gift. You who have been longing for fulfillment and greater alignment with who you are have requested this. In general, you are not a patient humanity, and especially those of you who have been doing this a long time. You have a sense of wanting to get on with things. Well, it is necessary, in order to get on with things, to deepen that process of release, of clarification of choice, what is real and what is not, and to relax out of the old structures completely. Down in the root, release the fear-based, survival-based experiences. Down in the unconscious, release all of the adaptations around how you could get your needs met in the old structure of separation. In this time our only desire is to stand with you, to encourage you to make the choice in every moment, whenever and however you feel you have consciousness.
We wish to assist you to plant your feet in the new experience of living love, to plant your root, to release the old structures, memories, and emotional patterning, and to allow the new operating system and software to be uploaded. You might think of downloading, but it is more uploaded because it is coming from a field that you are already able to touch and be immersed in. We are not downloading this. This is LIVING love. It is in the earth, and it is in the field that is now communicating and vibrating its presence. The Earth Mother birthed it, with your consciousness contributing, as well as ours, but it is LIVING. It is not meant to be accessed only from a spiritual place. You have to embody it. It has to be vibrationally, emotionally, physically experienced. Therefore, we can stand with you, assist you to know there is a choice, but it is your choice, and it is present right where you are.
WE HAVE HAD SOME SENSE, OR VISION, OR WHAT MIGHT BE PART OF OUR FUTURE. FOR EXAMPLE, IT SEEMED THAT WE WOULD CREATE A LARGER SPACE OUT OF WHICH WE MIGHT CREATE OUR EXPRESSIONS, HAVE GROUPS, AND MAYBE EVEN SOME TYPE OF CONSCIOUS CO-HOUSING. YET, WE FIND OURSELVES RESTRUCTURING IN OUR CURRENT SPACE AND DOING MUCH CLEANING OUT OF OLD ITEMS.
You are mirroring what we just spoke of. In a sense, the new structures need to be able to be experienced, felt, and held in the self, first. You have to be able to do that before you create a larger field with many. Even the small collective that is moving into this is not yet at that place. It is not yet ready, not yet able to fully work the operating system, do you see? The vision may precede the actual practice. You may see ahead, so you have a sense at times of where it may be going, and yet you are practicing, exercising, and knowing that you have to do what's next, even if you don't understand how that leads to that vision. You have to do what's next, so you continue to reorganize, restructure, clean out at these deeper levels, which allows the new operating system to take root, so to speak, in levels that previously it had no access to in your consciousness. THAT gives you the opportunity and capacity, then, to utilize the software that is available for the hardware to create and manifest much more effortlessly and easily, while NOT bringing along the old potential to crash the system.
So, it's carefully being built within those who are moving to this next place. Many of the new children don't carry in the kind of adaptations, the old memory, and the old emotional patterns. They are not all going through this same kind of thing, although some are. Some are doing emotional clearing at a young age, because they brought in some things to clear and cannot land the whole new operating system, either, until this is cleared. But those of you who have come out of the old, and have lived in it many lifetimes, and who have chosen to be the transformers of it, you ones have an even greater need to clear this old operating system and the adaptations before you use the new on a larger scale.
People begin to feel this at a certain level, and need to realize that the human ego is also transforming. The ego continues in the new structures, but it is not the separated ego. The ego begins to align with what is real, and who you are in the new, living field. The sense of self begins to say I am, AND I am part of. The whole of who I am and the whole of life, love, and light are together. We are unified, we are a holographic consciousness, AND I exist as myself, as well. How this can be is mystery to the old ego, so anything that is not released out of the old structures will grab hold of what you have grown. It thinks, well, okay, I've got it now, and now I'm about ready to manifest in all those ways that I believe is possible. And yet, nothing happens, so the self says ‘I must be______”. So, it slips back into the old structure, the old patterns, the old ideas, or the old storylines, you see? It judges, partly because it is still operating. Nothing is wrong with that, there is no judgment on that. It's just another choice.
So you may say, ah, I see, I still have that tendency to judge myself. I still have that tendency to claim something beyond my capacity to actually experience and fully do it. I still have that capacity to yo-yo a bit with the ego. Okay, so what? It's normal, it's natural; it is part of this process and not to be judged. It's just a choice. Ah, so I have choice where to put my focus, now. Well, if it isn't on judgment, and it isn't on an assumption that I have the whole upload and it's all ready to go, I choose now to open to receive living love. I choose now to stand in a receptive, listening place to what is real. I wonder what IS the truth in this moment? I wonder what IS the reality of who I am in this moment? I wonder, if I open to clearing my mind using the blue ray of truth and integrity, I wonder if I clear the emotional body with the violet, I wonder if I ask for old imprints and old structures to release, I wonder what I will feel then?
You open and step with conscious choice into a place of receptivity and connection with the new living field of love, and you do not know, until you know, what is next. When you know what is next, then you do it. You follow through, and you open that experience of flow, to allow more capacity through that choice into great life. Opening the flow and following through creates the new pathways and operating system. It doesn't just upload and sit there. It is an active experience. It has to be used in order to grow, continue to upload, continue to release what is no longer part of your structure.
YOU EARLIER TALKED ABOUT FEELING A CERTAIN IMPATIENCE. I HAVE TO SAY THAT I FEEL LESS OF THAT NOW THAN I USED TO. I ALSO NOTICED HOW VISIONS CAN BE A TRICKY THING SOMETIMES. PEOPLE MIGHT HAVE A VISION, AND THEN FEEL THEY HAVE TO MAKE IT BE SO, RATHER THAN UNDERSTANDING THAT THERE IS A PROCESS THAT, IF HONORED, LEADS TO THE FULFILLMENT OF THAT VISION. IT SEEMS TO ME THAT THE IMPATIENCE CAN COME FROM THAT SENSE THAT SOMETHING IS NOT BEING ATTAINED OR HAPPENING THE WAY IT IS "SUPPOSED TO".
And then that polarizes with despair if it cannot be attained in this time or the time it sees as foreseeable, then there is the sense of no hope.
YES, SO THIS EMOTIONAL THING STARTS HAPPENING AROUND IT. IN MY CASE, I HAVE THIS SENSE OF A PLACE WE MAY YET CREATE, BUT I AM FEELING MORE CONTENT WITH JUST DOING WHAT'S NEXT. FOR US IT IS THE REARRANGING OF OUR WORK SPACE AND CLEARING MORE OF OUR STUFF OUT OF STORAGE. I NOTICE, TOO, THAT I FEEL AS THOUGH I'M NOT YET EMOTIONALLY OR PHYSICALLY PREPARED TO TAKE ON AS LARGE A PROJECT AS I HAVE VISIONED. IT'S NOT WHERE I'M AT, AND YET I CAN SEE IT SITTING THERE.
Yes, and it's not yet moving in that direction in ways that you can see. But it is moving, because you are making the choices to follow through on what is next. So, each time you follow through, even though you cannot see how it may lead to where you think you are going, it still is moving in that direction. And you cannot know exactly where you are moving, for the future is very malleable.
In duality, there is a certain nature of crystallization of structures, rules, laws, and the way everybody agreed on the reality system. Because of that, there became a certain kind of predictability. You had forecasters of the future, and goal-setters with 5 year plans. Many people set out and they climbed their mountains, and there was a certain sense of ‘I can do this because I know the way, and all I have to do is set out the steps, make the plans, and it will happen because I am in control'. This is the way duality made it out, and the ego got a lot of feedback about its capacity to set the goal, go after it, and attain it. That is not the same way the new system operates. Those who choose this new system may find themselves expecting that they are going to have a vision, set the course, and then attain it. They may find that this is not the software program to use here. Therefore, what is it?
WONDERING is a very good stance for the new matrix. It opens you. It is the quest that says I am open to receive something new. It is a sense of letting your self be informed about what is next. If a vision is real and stands true within the field, it will unfold in its own organic way. So, how do you know if you are organically growing this into form, or when it is time to pop out a leaf, for example, or when it is time to blossom? Your consciousness may have a sense of it, but it is not completely in charge of it. That's where the transformed ego and aligning with that sense of self begins to listen: ‘what is my part within the dance and organic growth of the whole'. That is where you know in the moment what is your part, and what is next. That's how you stay in the current, by staying present to what is next and then doing that.
As you listen in the moment to what is next and proceed through what you are growing, other people show up, the right connections are made, you wonder what is needed and you begin to get it either consciously or through others. It starts to be made known. You stay present and in an awareness of what fits into this creation process and what does not. This is the practice that is important right now. Right now. And not just for right now, but for however long it takes, because there IS another wave coming moving all of you into this new living field with a new operating system and new software to work with it. This is your part right now, and we cannot do your part. That is what our message is: we cannot do it. It is your choice to make. It is only your choice, every day, in the moment, every moment. The more you are aware, open, receptive, and willing to move your conscious attention away from what has been familiar, the more you will be informed in every moment that you so choose.
THE PIECE THAT STANDS OUT TO ME AS THE CORE OF YOUR MESSAGE IS TO FOLLOW THROUGH ON WHAT IS NEXT, EVEN IF YOU CAN'T SEE WHERE IT IS GOING. I FEEL LIKE I WANT TO PUT A SIGN ON MY WALL THAT SAYS JUST PAY ATTENTION AND DO WHAT IS NEXT. IT'S THE HEART OF IT TO ME.
It's the heart of it to you, because you are a do-er.
For those who like to have a sense of what to do, they say, ‘well, just do what is next'. That is their advice, and that is their mantra. So, that works for you. But for those who are feel-ers, or be-ers, that may not be as practical.
WELLLLLL, OKAY, LET'S COME UP WITH SOME SLOGANS FOR THE FEEL-ERS AND BE-ERS, AND WHATEVER OTHERS THERE MAY BE..........
[laughter].......Well, feel-ers may need to check whether their feelings are coming from the old structures, the old adaptations, the old stories, or whether their feelings are coming from this new alignment, this new matrix. So, their process may be one of checking in, clarifying, and re-aligning. If they are coming from an unconscious place then the feelings will continue to tell them to stay in that place, because that is what they feel is real in that time. Emotions are very convincing to those who feel strongly. It is helpful if they can make choices, based on consciousness, to check whether or not that feeling is coming from an old pattern, which will usually feel bad. It will feel as if you are lonely, cut off, separate, or in judgment. Those are old stories. It is not the reality, the truth, or the new matrix. Sort, clarify, and choose again to re-align and plant your feet in what is real. Use the blue ray, the violet ray, and the indigo. That will help.
Be-ers would be one category of those who tend to stand more in the feminine, receptive state. Their choice in this time is to realize that stepping forth into this new, living field is a place where they will be embraced, and where they can know the experience of self and how they are experiencing and creating themselves in form. They need to step out of the mystery, into the form-giving. Out of the sense of being, awareness, and possibility into the experience of the landing of it, the forming of it, the experience of it, the articulation of it.
For them, the next step may be to realize that the sense of what is new and real needs a little more firm landing through the root and drinking from the well, and that they are not quite ready to move until they have their feet on the ground, until they are planted, until they have embrace.
The be-ers are often like seed people. They carry much in terms of potential, but they don't always know how to bring it about, to form it. They did not have the goal-setting practice of the duality structure. That was not their thing. Most of them have been doing things in a sort of private way, or small versions of what they would like to bring into form. So, for them it is important to be planting, releasing out through the root, opening the direct connection to life, drawing from life directly, and allowing their seeds to now be grown. Not just all by themselves with self in charge, but organically within the new living field, participating not just as the seed or the seed planter, but also as the gardener. So, you may have things to do while this is growing, and then you pay attention to what is next. Then you are with the do-ers, so to speak.
Then there are the visionaries who think they know what is next and in the future, and then they want to go towards it. They want to be there, and would like it to manifest tomorrow, or today if possible. They are tired of seeing what is possible, and then not having it manifest. These ones have a little of the be-ing aspect, which needs to plant their potential deeper within this plane of living love and living light. They also have a little bit of 'what is the next step'. What might be helpful for the visionary aspects, if that is strong for you, is to realize that you may need to listen daily to how it is being informed, rather than just one time feeling this is how it is to be and then attaching to it. It's more about living into the vision experience, rather than crystallizing a vision and trying to make it happen. It's a living into it, a daily checking-in to how does it feel today, is there a step for me today, where is it today. Is there something that has evolved, or changed, or opened into another experience? Perhaps weekly would work for those who don't have time on a daily basis. That might help continue to bring it into the moment rather than feeling as if the future is in some way more delectable than the present.
WELL, THIS IS A LOT OF GREAT MATERIAL FOR ME TO WORK WITH AND PREPARE FOR OUR READERS. I HAVE ANOTHER PROJECT FOR THE WEEK, IT WOULD SEEM.
Yes, what is next..............[laughter]
IT GIVES THIS DO-ER SOMETHING TO DO. AND AS FOR OUR OTHER PROJECTS, I HAVE TO SAY THAT IT FEELS GREAT TO BE CLEANING OUT THINGS.
And it will feel even better as you move it into greater coherency and usability so that it actually is functioning on your behalf. Therefore you have the power of your unconscious, so to speak, connecting to the power of life, and they are joining together to create the structures that support you to create who you are and what is yours to create in form. The unconscious is not to remain unconscious, and that's why when you clean out files you are actually inserting - on a metaphoric level, of course - what you choose, which is conscious. And you are releasing what you have forgotten or what has been the old storylines or operating system that no longer applies. It does not compute with the new. So, it makes everything work better. It's rather like when you have a very good operating system with software that is compatible, and nothing is bogging it down, then it serves you well. Everything is more efficient.
SO, ON WE GO.
Yes, and many blessings to you and to all who are connecting through this means that you provide. And we do extend blessing, which calls forth with grace and love all that we perceive to be the longing of your souls. Sometimes all we do is touch the longing with a little bit of light, just touch it, so that you feel it. Perhaps you wake up with it in the morning, and rather than seeing that the longing is not fulfilled, which is the old structure again, it is only meant to align it. Choose to align it with the new living field so it can come to fulfillment beyond what you have imagined or even dreamed of. That capacity, possibility, and fulfillment is what is living now, right there, everywhere you are. So, our blessing is for the longings to be fulfilled!